Sunday, October 31, 2010 @ 12:48 AM
HeyGuys , i'mma back to post for the second time . Just now went to EscapeThemePark for the halloween thingy . Ohhgoshh , it was really fun but scary urhhs . We went in got alot of 'ghost' walking out . Their makeup looks freaking real ! I'm scaredd , hahah . I know i dont have guts urhhs :P Then went in , we went to take the viking ride . Lining up , a bunch of guys cut our queues =.= Damn it ? And those girls are flirting with him . Its really disgusting ..
Saw honglian they all . Damn siol , they keep following/waiting . Angry . Then when it was our turn , i was not scared . But when it started swinging high , i felt like falling . Was freaking scared . Seriously . So i hole the pole very tight . xD Then when its over , my legs are really like jelly . Cant even walk straight . Then went to take the ferry wheels . Saw a little crazy guy , talking to himself . Then later , he started scaring people by saying : BOOM ! Lawls . I was scared of him . Hahah , seriously he is scary .
After taking the ride , we went to take picture with one of the scary ghost . After taking pictures , he seems like moving towards me , but i walk away . Hahah , scaredscared . Then we went for the fortune telling thingy to line up , a broken hand ghost was approaching us . He stood behind me . Super close and keep staring at me . I guess he wanted to shout in my ear , but i act like i not scared . Awhile , he started targeting at my cousin . Hahah , but he didnt do anything . Wowww , close shave ! I was actually shivering but he didn't realise xD
Scared until like siao , we out . Took taxi to woodlands to my cousin house . Now using my cousin's labtop to online . Saw what my tween post . i guess my friend betrayed me yeahh ? Sighh , i just wanna express my feelings out to lightened my heart . Is there really anything wrong ? I really dont know it'll ruin our friendship because of this , seriously . Now i was totally heartbroken . I dont wanna end my friendship with my tween . BlogBlog , can youh help me ? ):
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh
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Saturday, October 30, 2010 @ 1:50 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back againn . Haiis , lets start the story now then . Today i'm really angry & sad . Angry is because of my tween . She insisted / suggested me to break . I don't want . It isnt a easy task alright ? I told youh the same thing yesterday , but youh also say no . Now , i also dont want . Fair ? Lawls . Sad is because yesterday he didn't even bother to chat with me on facebook when he is onlinee . Never talk in school at least at facebook chat barhh ? Sighh , never talk to me at school but facebook is actually a good sign to me already . As it proves that youh still bother talking to me ..
I'm really sad to the max alright? I sometimes really wanna start the conversation first , but , i dont know what to start plus , i dont even think he'll bother to reply me & think i'm annoying . BlogBlog , i really don't know what to do youh know . I dont even have a person i trust to talk to . I'm really depressed about him . I keep telling my friends that i dont wanna bother him anymore , but .. It's all a lie , i think . Cause the more i say i dont wanna bother about him , the more i'll bother . HelpHelp ! I really very depressed siol . Haiis , he really very pro . Let me fall with him so deep until i always sad and emo because of him ):
Later going to EscapeThemePark the halloween thingy with : @KevinKorKor , @CelineJieJie , @AmyTingTing & @myself (: Woohoo , excited alrights ? So long never go to theme park and play lurhhs . HappyHappy . Alright , i've nothing more to post already . Byebye readers .
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh
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Friday, October 29, 2010 @ 4:03 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back againn . Time to start my story :) Today , i'm really freaking sad . Morning went to school , he's not at the place he used to be . There is only two reasons . Is either he never attend school or he dosent wanna bother me anymoree .. Haiis , i'm really sad about that . Then after assembly , went for a short PE & started the CompassvaleSecondaryTalk & PunggolSecondaryTalk . After that , recess . Wenli said she say him , so i look around and spotted him . But , i didn't went to talk to him . Cause i wanna him to approach me on his ownn .
Haiis , unfortunately , he didn't . After school also the same .
I'm really heartbroken siol . I really have the thinking that he'll only cheer me up when i'm sad . But when i'm 'happy' , he just leave me alone and playy . I guess , other things are more important than me to him . Haiis . I really think my acting for being happy is very good . Cause he believed it . Maybe , he really dosen't understands me ): BlogBlog , i really miss texting and talking to him in both real life and facebook youh know ? I'm trying really really hard not to cry and act strong in front of my friends , especially my tween . When she's sad and text me , i'll always act like i'm strong , but actually , its all a lie . I'm sorry tween for lying ):
To Him : If youh really dont love me , why dont youh just tell me ? If youh really dont wanna chat with me , why dotn youh tell me ? If youh think that i'm alright is always true , can i proved that youh dont know me well ? I really dont wanna youh to toy me youh know . My heart have already broken into many pieces . My mind have alot of reasons to let go , but i still choose to stayy . Wanna know the reason ? Cause i've fall too deep in youh , cry too much about youh , have many sweet memories with youh .. I really dont know what to do youh know ? I just hope youh're not toying with me okay ? Cause i already love youh so deeply until i dont know what to do without youhhh . Haiis ..
To tweenie : Tween , dont sad alrights ? I know no matter what i say , youh can't . So am i , i really dont know what to do also . I'mma speechless & stuck . I guess , we always have the same problem urhhs . Sighh , just hope youh can cheerup ..
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh
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Thursday, October 28, 2010 @ 9:58 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back againn . Hmm , i guess my blog is over-alive yeahh ? Hahah ! I knoww , cause i've been update really really often . Whenever , i feel unhappy / happy / emotion & etc , i'll start to blogg (: So , if youh're my daily reader(s) , stay tuned ! Alright , start my story now alrights ? Hmm , today actually i was really sad . But i remember what he told me yesterday , "i hope to see youh smile like the old time" . That's why , i smile whenever i saw him . Maybe he really thought i was happy , thats why he never approach me today at school . Haiis , heartbroken
Today have hip-hop dance enrichment . And that was super funn ! That dance instrustor , MrLarry , was really good and funny ! Awww , i really love him as a dancing instructor . Have lots of fun there ((: After the dance , we went over to ask him whether he can coach us for busking day not . But he told us that we needa ask the teacher first . So we ran out of rainbow connection & went to look for the teacher . But , she was nowwhere to be seen -.- Me & audrey look everywhere for her and waited . Later decided to go to RainbowConnection to try our luck . In the end , we're right (: She's in there ! WooHoo ! :D
Asked her about it & she said cannot . Unless we join his studio and pay fees for him to coach us . Haiis , but , 100plus siol . I this type of person cannot afford ): SadSad . Then MotherTongue class , MrsChoo not here , wahh , sibei shoik ! We break the school rules ! HAHAH ! xD After that , went to ComLab1 with MsSeow to do the SocialStudiesSurvey . She still allowed us to log in to facebook after the survey . Guess what i do ? I tikam (: Clever rights? But only log in awhile then do the art thingyy . Lawls . After school , went down to canteen for lunchh . Never saw him ): Haiis .
Went hall practice and slackslack , fun is fun , but , not as fast as previous one ): SadSad worhh . Ohhyahh , got p1 kidd sibei naughty . I act like gangster and scream at them . Then they scream back . Fuck ? Then 4plus went home and search for kpop dance lessons & piano . But all fucking expensive -.- Search until sian liao , gave up . Then blahhhh ~ Just now fought with my laobuhh . Wanna go to the HolyInnocentHighSchool OpenHouse , she aso wanna follow . I wanna go with friends not YOUH ! Arghh ! Angry like hell . Dont feel like talking anymore , byebye !
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
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Wednesday, October 27, 2010 @ 10:43 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back to post againn . Let's get started ! Today morning , sibei suay . Me & Wenli kena caught by MrsBeins fringe & was forcd to pin up -.- What the hell siol . Why she always target us one ? Damnn siol . I looks like nerdd (: HAHA ! Then after PE , me & wenli kena caught our fingernails by MrDerek ! Arghh , then was forced to cut . I was laughing like mad when cutting . Lying on the floor xD Jessie they all keep saying me siao , i admit i am onee . :D
After that , we went back class . I was laughing like madd againn . Until teacher told me : Adeline , if i hear your laughter somemore , youh'll stayback for recess . But i still laugh (: I don't care ! :p Then went for recess , he never approach me and went to field and played his soccer . Then later , Jessie told him that i was sad because he didn't talk to me . He replied , i know larhhh ! Haiis , if he really know , why dont he approach me earlier ? Haiis . Speechless .
After recess , went up class , i felt super sleepy . Then started falling asleep & then teacher woke me up by repeating : AdelineAdeline , sleeping arhh ? Arghh ! Then never sleep , i laugh . HAHAH ! I'm madd today . After that , went for mother tongue class . While walking , i saw him , but i really dont wanna look there . I'm trying not to see him so i'll not feel so sadd . After that , put bagg at MotherTongue class and went to toilet to slack awhile , then go back and MrNg brought us to ComLab3 ! WooHoo , labtop (:
Me , Wenli & jessie , send emails through lead and talktalk . Awhile , bell rang and went down to canteen . Saw him , he approach me and so called , hugg me . Awww , iloveit ! Can i have somemore? Hahah ! He did talk to me . Then when i calling my mama , he keep shouting , mama , wo ai ni ! Cute horhh ? xD Then later Audrey called me , he thought was my mother and said the same stuff as it . Awww , baby , youh're so cutee ! (:
Then wait awhile , went homee . Going out from gateC , saw Khairul . And blahhh ~ Alrights , ending my post liaoo . BuhhByeee (:
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
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Tuesday, October 26, 2010 @ 6:59 PM
HeyHey ! I'm backk againn . Toldchaa , i'll be posting really really often . So , stay tuned at my blogblog for more post ? Hahah . Alright , let's start with my day :D Today morning , never saw him at the old place he use to wait around the boys' toilet . First thought was : I guess , he dosen't want to see me anymoree . Then felt emotional , but still keeping a fake smile on my face . Dont wanna express my feelings out . After reaching hall , i tried to peep at his class . But , i never see clearly cause i never wear my specs . So just went to my class & settle downn .
Awhile , Naadira came . I asked her whether got see him anot , but , she just shook her head . So , i already know that he was not present at school , so felt a little more emotional . Then have assembly & blahhhh . MusicLesson , MdmTan havent come , i secretly ate my squashed bread , which should be my breakfast but i just kept it in bagg & it was a little squash (: I was super hungry that time . Never eat anything since my dinner at 9pm yesterday . Then after that , went counselling with mama & went for dance practice .
Practice until 4plus , we started slacking by running around the school hall , screaming our lungs out & then take pichaaa(s) ! If wanna see pichaa(s) , go my facebook (: Ohhgodd , that was so fun siol . I laugh till like crazy . It've been so long i did not laugh till so crazy . Feel so much better after the dance practice , but , i still miss him lots ! ): Hope he'll turned up tomorrow & talktalk with me ! But i guess , it ain't possible . Haiis . Ohhgawdd ! Now 7.31pm already ! I still havent bathe yet ! WaitWait ! Don't mistaken , i did bathe in the morning alrights . But now , i do stink . HAHAH ! Gotta bathe noww , byee ! Remember to stay tuned (: ♥
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
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Monday, October 25, 2010 @ 5:41 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back to post againn . This is the only place where i really can express everything out , so i guess , i'll be blogging everyday . Today was a really moody day for me . Cause he never bother and talk to me , like what he did before . Hurtful alrights ? Recess time , i still thought he'll approach me , but , my prediction is really really wrong . Made me fall more deeper . Haiis . Then after school , me & wenli should be at counselling room to find MrSunny . But because of him , i gave an excuse just hope to see youhh at canteen and let him approach me . I kept dragging time , but , he still never approach me but talk to Sharifah . Ohhh , it hurts alot . I guess , youh really prefer her ..
Then slowly slowly walk to counselling room with a fake smile , then counsell till 4plus . Walked out of school gate , i started emoing really badly . At home , i okay a little , then switch on computer and listening to all those songs related to love , my heart hurts again . Then tears suddenly drip and roll down my cheeks . Gawdd , why can't i just stop crying ?! My eyes already cry until red and sore . Isn't that enough ? ): I really wanna _____ myself youh know? But i can't , i already promised MrSunny not to already , so i must keep on my words . Haiis , is there any medicine that can cure heartach-e ? If have , intro me some can ?
I really have enough of those pain . I have family stress , now , another relationship problems add in , i'm turning madd now . Tears keep rolling down my cheeks , i really can't control ! My mind was replaying the hurtful stuff he told/answer me . He said : Youh sad , i sad . I replied : Then close your eyes whenever youh see me sadd . Guess what his reply ? He replied me : K . Haiis , i really dont wanna continue any further . My heart hurts more now ..
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
Labels: Youh're my one and only babyy ♥
Sunday, October 24, 2010 @ 5:26 PM
Hey guyys , i'm starting my story now ! :) I'm here to say sorry to all my friends . I think i've made your very worried ehh ? I didn't mean it at all . My situation is really bad & hurtful . A useless bitch like me is unable to take the pain , that's why . I hope your will understand alrights ? Sorry againnn . ):
I'm really really emotional nowadays after the incident took place in my life . What i only know is : Cry , Cry out loudd . I may feel better . What i'm doing may not be right , but i dont know what to do except for that ? Haiis , i'm really stuck . My mind is replaying again & again : Let go OR hang on ? Helpppp !
To tweenie : Thanks honeyyy for comforting me when i'm depressed . I really appreciate that . I'm sorry for not being able to think positive cause my mind is seriously full of nagative stuffs . If i broke the promise , i'm truely sorry . What i can only do is just , cry and emo all day long , nothing else . I'll try to cheer myself up , but the chances is seriously not highh . Maybe just 10% it'll work ? I dont know . I'm sorry for everything tweenn . Iloveyouh ♥
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
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@ 12:10 AM
HeyHey! I'm back to post againn . Gawdd , i'm really really sad manxzc . I saw what he comment on my abang status . It hurts alot . Youh just want a relationship to cure your boredom ? I hope not can ? I'm really heartach-e when i saw what youh commented . Baby , please . It really do hurt me alrights ? Haiis , my heart hurts badly noww
To babyyy : Can youh please online facebook now ? I really in need youh to reply my inbox at facebook . I'm really desperate and scared for your replyy . I know youh wont be seeing this , but i do hope youh'll . I really dont wish to end this 2months & 11days relationship with youh , youh know ? I already gave in alot , to prevent any quarrels . Whenever youh ask me : Are youh alright , i'll always say : Yeahh , i'm fine . Whenever youh tell me youh're sorry , i'll always say : Nehmindd . I dont wanna argue back . But did youh really realise all those stuff was actually a lie ? I just dont wanna youh to rack your brains to cheer me up or be worried . I just hope all youh'll tell me : I'm lucky and will never regret having youhh . Iloveyouhh ♥ Is it possible ? I guess no . But one thing is , i'll be waiting for your reply baby . I wont let youh go .
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
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Saturday, October 23, 2010 @ 5:08 PM
I'm starting my story now guyys ! :) I'm really really jealous of my sister ! She's pretty , hardworking , have really really good friends , good results . She's really my role model & perfect to me . Can't i really be like her ? Haiis . I'm always trying to be like her , but i cant . Maybe thats the meaning of ' one & only ' barhh ? Yesterday , she at train told me alot of things . I did reflect myself , but i can't get the answer . No matter what i think , everything went blank .
So what am i gonna do ? Keep trying & reflecting although there's gonna be no answer ? Haiis , i really don't know what to do . MrSunny ! I need youh badly now ): I'm really stuck , stuck , stuck ! All i know now is onlyy : My World is pitch black & meaningless . Nothing seems to be ahead of me . In front me is nothing , only a black wall . Blocking my wayy .
Alrights , i guess it's time for me to end the post !
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
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@ 12:16 AM
HeyHey ! FuckingBitchh here :D I'mma the owner for this new blog . Support by tagging okay ? ThanksThanks . Gotta go , nightsnights honeyyy(s) ♥
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
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Sunday, October 31, 2010 @ 12:48 AM
HeyGuys , i'mma back to post for the second time . Just now went to EscapeThemePark for the halloween thingy . Ohhgoshh , it was really fun but scary urhhs . We went in got alot of 'ghost' walking out . Their makeup looks freaking real ! I'm scaredd , hahah . I know i dont have guts urhhs :P Then went in , we went to take the viking ride . Lining up , a bunch of guys cut our queues =.= Damn it ? And those girls are flirting with him . Its really disgusting ..
Saw honglian they all . Damn siol , they keep following/waiting . Angry . Then when it was our turn , i was not scared . But when it started swinging high , i felt like falling . Was freaking scared . Seriously . So i hole the pole very tight . xD Then when its over , my legs are really like jelly . Cant even walk straight . Then went to take the ferry wheels . Saw a little crazy guy , talking to himself . Then later , he started scaring people by saying : BOOM ! Lawls . I was scared of him . Hahah , seriously he is scary .
After taking the ride , we went to take picture with one of the scary ghost . After taking pictures , he seems like moving towards me , but i walk away . Hahah , scaredscared . Then we went for the fortune telling thingy to line up , a broken hand ghost was approaching us . He stood behind me . Super close and keep staring at me . I guess he wanted to shout in my ear , but i act like i not scared . Awhile , he started targeting at my cousin . Hahah , but he didnt do anything . Wowww , close shave ! I was actually shivering but he didn't realise xD
Scared until like siao , we out . Took taxi to woodlands to my cousin house . Now using my cousin's labtop to online . Saw what my tween post . i guess my friend betrayed me yeahh ? Sighh , i just wanna express my feelings out to lightened my heart . Is there really anything wrong ? I really dont know it'll ruin our friendship because of this , seriously . Now i was totally heartbroken . I dont wanna end my friendship with my tween . BlogBlog , can youh help me ? ):
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh
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Saturday, October 30, 2010 @ 1:50 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back againn . Haiis , lets start the story now then . Today i'm really angry & sad . Angry is because of my tween . She insisted / suggested me to break . I don't want . It isnt a easy task alright ? I told youh the same thing yesterday , but youh also say no . Now , i also dont want . Fair ? Lawls . Sad is because yesterday he didn't even bother to chat with me on facebook when he is onlinee . Never talk in school at least at facebook chat barhh ? Sighh , never talk to me at school but facebook is actually a good sign to me already . As it proves that youh still bother talking to me ..
I'm really sad to the max alright? I sometimes really wanna start the conversation first , but , i dont know what to start plus , i dont even think he'll bother to reply me & think i'm annoying . BlogBlog , i really don't know what to do youh know . I dont even have a person i trust to talk to . I'm really depressed about him . I keep telling my friends that i dont wanna bother him anymore , but .. It's all a lie , i think . Cause the more i say i dont wanna bother about him , the more i'll bother . HelpHelp ! I really very depressed siol . Haiis , he really very pro . Let me fall with him so deep until i always sad and emo because of him ):
Later going to EscapeThemePark the halloween thingy with : @KevinKorKor , @CelineJieJie , @AmyTingTing & @myself (: Woohoo , excited alrights ? So long never go to theme park and play lurhhs . HappyHappy . Alright , i've nothing more to post already . Byebye readers .
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh
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Friday, October 29, 2010 @ 4:03 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back againn . Time to start my story :) Today , i'm really freaking sad . Morning went to school , he's not at the place he used to be . There is only two reasons . Is either he never attend school or he dosent wanna bother me anymoree .. Haiis , i'm really sad about that . Then after assembly , went for a short PE & started the CompassvaleSecondaryTalk & PunggolSecondaryTalk . After that , recess . Wenli said she say him , so i look around and spotted him . But , i didn't went to talk to him . Cause i wanna him to approach me on his ownn .
Haiis , unfortunately , he didn't . After school also the same .
I'm really heartbroken siol . I really have the thinking that he'll only cheer me up when i'm sad . But when i'm 'happy' , he just leave me alone and playy . I guess , other things are more important than me to him . Haiis . I really think my acting for being happy is very good . Cause he believed it . Maybe , he really dosen't understands me ): BlogBlog , i really miss texting and talking to him in both real life and facebook youh know ? I'm trying really really hard not to cry and act strong in front of my friends , especially my tween . When she's sad and text me , i'll always act like i'm strong , but actually , its all a lie . I'm sorry tween for lying ):
To Him : If youh really dont love me , why dont youh just tell me ? If youh really dont wanna chat with me , why dotn youh tell me ? If youh think that i'm alright is always true , can i proved that youh dont know me well ? I really dont wanna youh to toy me youh know . My heart have already broken into many pieces . My mind have alot of reasons to let go , but i still choose to stayy . Wanna know the reason ? Cause i've fall too deep in youh , cry too much about youh , have many sweet memories with youh .. I really dont know what to do youh know ? I just hope youh're not toying with me okay ? Cause i already love youh so deeply until i dont know what to do without youhhh . Haiis ..
To tweenie : Tween , dont sad alrights ? I know no matter what i say , youh can't . So am i , i really dont know what to do also . I'mma speechless & stuck . I guess , we always have the same problem urhhs . Sighh , just hope youh can cheerup ..
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh
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Thursday, October 28, 2010 @ 9:58 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back againn . Hmm , i guess my blog is over-alive yeahh ? Hahah ! I knoww , cause i've been update really really often . Whenever , i feel unhappy / happy / emotion & etc , i'll start to blogg (: So , if youh're my daily reader(s) , stay tuned ! Alright , start my story now alrights ? Hmm , today actually i was really sad . But i remember what he told me yesterday , "i hope to see youh smile like the old time" . That's why , i smile whenever i saw him . Maybe he really thought i was happy , thats why he never approach me today at school . Haiis , heartbroken
Today have hip-hop dance enrichment . And that was super funn ! That dance instrustor , MrLarry , was really good and funny ! Awww , i really love him as a dancing instructor . Have lots of fun there ((: After the dance , we went over to ask him whether he can coach us for busking day not . But he told us that we needa ask the teacher first . So we ran out of rainbow connection & went to look for the teacher . But , she was nowwhere to be seen -.- Me & audrey look everywhere for her and waited . Later decided to go to RainbowConnection to try our luck . In the end , we're right (: She's in there ! WooHoo ! :D
Asked her about it & she said cannot . Unless we join his studio and pay fees for him to coach us . Haiis , but , 100plus siol . I this type of person cannot afford ): SadSad . Then MotherTongue class , MrsChoo not here , wahh , sibei shoik ! We break the school rules ! HAHAH ! xD After that , went to ComLab1 with MsSeow to do the SocialStudiesSurvey . She still allowed us to log in to facebook after the survey . Guess what i do ? I tikam (: Clever rights? But only log in awhile then do the art thingyy . Lawls . After school , went down to canteen for lunchh . Never saw him ): Haiis .
Went hall practice and slackslack , fun is fun , but , not as fast as previous one ): SadSad worhh . Ohhyahh , got p1 kidd sibei naughty . I act like gangster and scream at them . Then they scream back . Fuck ? Then 4plus went home and search for kpop dance lessons & piano . But all fucking expensive -.- Search until sian liao , gave up . Then blahhhh ~ Just now fought with my laobuhh . Wanna go to the HolyInnocentHighSchool OpenHouse , she aso wanna follow . I wanna go with friends not YOUH ! Arghh ! Angry like hell . Dont feel like talking anymore , byebye !
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
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Wednesday, October 27, 2010 @ 10:43 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back to post againn . Let's get started ! Today morning , sibei suay . Me & Wenli kena caught by MrsBeins fringe & was forcd to pin up -.- What the hell siol . Why she always target us one ? Damnn siol . I looks like nerdd (: HAHA ! Then after PE , me & wenli kena caught our fingernails by MrDerek ! Arghh , then was forced to cut . I was laughing like mad when cutting . Lying on the floor xD Jessie they all keep saying me siao , i admit i am onee . :D
After that , we went back class . I was laughing like madd againn . Until teacher told me : Adeline , if i hear your laughter somemore , youh'll stayback for recess . But i still laugh (: I don't care ! :p Then went for recess , he never approach me and went to field and played his soccer . Then later , Jessie told him that i was sad because he didn't talk to me . He replied , i know larhhh ! Haiis , if he really know , why dont he approach me earlier ? Haiis . Speechless .
After recess , went up class , i felt super sleepy . Then started falling asleep & then teacher woke me up by repeating : AdelineAdeline , sleeping arhh ? Arghh ! Then never sleep , i laugh . HAHAH ! I'm madd today . After that , went for mother tongue class . While walking , i saw him , but i really dont wanna look there . I'm trying not to see him so i'll not feel so sadd . After that , put bagg at MotherTongue class and went to toilet to slack awhile , then go back and MrNg brought us to ComLab3 ! WooHoo , labtop (:
Me , Wenli & jessie , send emails through lead and talktalk . Awhile , bell rang and went down to canteen . Saw him , he approach me and so called , hugg me . Awww , iloveit ! Can i have somemore? Hahah ! He did talk to me . Then when i calling my mama , he keep shouting , mama , wo ai ni ! Cute horhh ? xD Then later Audrey called me , he thought was my mother and said the same stuff as it . Awww , baby , youh're so cutee ! (:
Then wait awhile , went homee . Going out from gateC , saw Khairul . And blahhh ~ Alrights , ending my post liaoo . BuhhByeee (:
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
Labels: Youh're my one and only babyy ♥
Tuesday, October 26, 2010 @ 6:59 PM
HeyHey ! I'm backk againn . Toldchaa , i'll be posting really really often . So , stay tuned at my blogblog for more post ? Hahah . Alright , let's start with my day :D Today morning , never saw him at the old place he use to wait around the boys' toilet . First thought was : I guess , he dosen't want to see me anymoree . Then felt emotional , but still keeping a fake smile on my face . Dont wanna express my feelings out . After reaching hall , i tried to peep at his class . But , i never see clearly cause i never wear my specs . So just went to my class & settle downn .
Awhile , Naadira came . I asked her whether got see him anot , but , she just shook her head . So , i already know that he was not present at school , so felt a little more emotional . Then have assembly & blahhhh . MusicLesson , MdmTan havent come , i secretly ate my squashed bread , which should be my breakfast but i just kept it in bagg & it was a little squash (: I was super hungry that time . Never eat anything since my dinner at 9pm yesterday . Then after that , went counselling with mama & went for dance practice .
Practice until 4plus , we started slacking by running around the school hall , screaming our lungs out & then take pichaaa(s) ! If wanna see pichaa(s) , go my facebook (: Ohhgodd , that was so fun siol . I laugh till like crazy . It've been so long i did not laugh till so crazy . Feel so much better after the dance practice , but , i still miss him lots ! ): Hope he'll turned up tomorrow & talktalk with me ! But i guess , it ain't possible . Haiis . Ohhgawdd ! Now 7.31pm already ! I still havent bathe yet ! WaitWait ! Don't mistaken , i did bathe in the morning alrights . But now , i do stink . HAHAH ! Gotta bathe noww , byee ! Remember to stay tuned (: ♥
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
Labels: Youh're my one and only babyy ♥
Monday, October 25, 2010 @ 5:41 PM
HeyGuys , i'mma back to post againn . This is the only place where i really can express everything out , so i guess , i'll be blogging everyday . Today was a really moody day for me . Cause he never bother and talk to me , like what he did before . Hurtful alrights ? Recess time , i still thought he'll approach me , but , my prediction is really really wrong . Made me fall more deeper . Haiis . Then after school , me & wenli should be at counselling room to find MrSunny . But because of him , i gave an excuse just hope to see youhh at canteen and let him approach me . I kept dragging time , but , he still never approach me but talk to Sharifah . Ohhh , it hurts alot . I guess , youh really prefer her ..
Then slowly slowly walk to counselling room with a fake smile , then counsell till 4plus . Walked out of school gate , i started emoing really badly . At home , i okay a little , then switch on computer and listening to all those songs related to love , my heart hurts again . Then tears suddenly drip and roll down my cheeks . Gawdd , why can't i just stop crying ?! My eyes already cry until red and sore . Isn't that enough ? ): I really wanna _____ myself youh know? But i can't , i already promised MrSunny not to already , so i must keep on my words . Haiis , is there any medicine that can cure heartach-e ? If have , intro me some can ?
I really have enough of those pain . I have family stress , now , another relationship problems add in , i'm turning madd now . Tears keep rolling down my cheeks , i really can't control ! My mind was replaying the hurtful stuff he told/answer me . He said : Youh sad , i sad . I replied : Then close your eyes whenever youh see me sadd . Guess what his reply ? He replied me : K . Haiis , i really dont wanna continue any further . My heart hurts more now ..
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
Labels: Youh're my one and only babyy ♥
Sunday, October 24, 2010 @ 5:26 PM
Hey guyys , i'm starting my story now ! :) I'm here to say sorry to all my friends . I think i've made your very worried ehh ? I didn't mean it at all . My situation is really bad & hurtful . A useless bitch like me is unable to take the pain , that's why . I hope your will understand alrights ? Sorry againnn . ):
I'm really really emotional nowadays after the incident took place in my life . What i only know is : Cry , Cry out loudd . I may feel better . What i'm doing may not be right , but i dont know what to do except for that ? Haiis , i'm really stuck . My mind is replaying again & again : Let go OR hang on ? Helpppp !
To tweenie : Thanks honeyyy for comforting me when i'm depressed . I really appreciate that . I'm sorry for not being able to think positive cause my mind is seriously full of nagative stuffs . If i broke the promise , i'm truely sorry . What i can only do is just , cry and emo all day long , nothing else . I'll try to cheer myself up , but the chances is seriously not highh . Maybe just 10% it'll work ? I dont know . I'm sorry for everything tweenn . Iloveyouh ♥
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
Labels: Youh're my one and only babyy ♥
@ 12:10 AM
HeyHey! I'm back to post againn . Gawdd , i'm really really sad manxzc . I saw what he comment on my abang status . It hurts alot . Youh just want a relationship to cure your boredom ? I hope not can ? I'm really heartach-e when i saw what youh commented . Baby , please . It really do hurt me alrights ? Haiis , my heart hurts badly noww
To babyyy : Can youh please online facebook now ? I really in need youh to reply my inbox at facebook . I'm really desperate and scared for your replyy . I know youh wont be seeing this , but i do hope youh'll . I really dont wish to end this 2months & 11days relationship with youh , youh know ? I already gave in alot , to prevent any quarrels . Whenever youh ask me : Are youh alright , i'll always say : Yeahh , i'm fine . Whenever youh tell me youh're sorry , i'll always say : Nehmindd . I dont wanna argue back . But did youh really realise all those stuff was actually a lie ? I just dont wanna youh to rack your brains to cheer me up or be worried . I just hope all youh'll tell me : I'm lucky and will never regret having youhh . Iloveyouhh ♥ Is it possible ? I guess no . But one thing is , i'll be waiting for your reply baby . I wont let youh go .
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
Labels: Youh're my one and only babyy ♥
Saturday, October 23, 2010 @ 5:08 PM
I'm starting my story now guyys ! :) I'm really really jealous of my sister ! She's pretty , hardworking , have really really good friends , good results . She's really my role model & perfect to me . Can't i really be like her ? Haiis . I'm always trying to be like her , but i cant . Maybe thats the meaning of ' one & only ' barhh ? Yesterday , she at train told me alot of things . I did reflect myself , but i can't get the answer . No matter what i think , everything went blank .
So what am i gonna do ? Keep trying & reflecting although there's gonna be no answer ? Haiis , i really don't know what to do . MrSunny ! I need youh badly now ): I'm really stuck , stuck , stuck ! All i know now is onlyy : My World is pitch black & meaningless . Nothing seems to be ahead of me . In front me is nothing , only a black wall . Blocking my wayy .
Alrights , i guess it's time for me to end the post !
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
Labels: Youh're my one and only babyy ♥
@ 12:16 AM
HeyHey ! FuckingBitchh here :D I'mma the owner for this new blog . Support by tagging okay ? ThanksThanks . Gotta go , nightsnights honeyyy(s) ♥
With evil love (♥) ,
FuckingBitchh .
Labels: Youh're my one and only babyy ♥
HeyGuys , i'mma back againn . Haiis , lets start the story now then . Today i'm really angry & sad . Angry is because of my tween . She insisted / suggested me to break . I don't want . It isnt a easy task alright ? I told youh the same thing yesterday , but youh also say no . Now , i also dont want . Fair ? Lawls . Sad is because yesterday he didn't even bother to chat with me on facebook when he is onlinee . Never talk in school at least at facebook chat barhh ? Sighh , never talk to me at school but facebook is actually a good sign to me already . As it proves that youh still bother talking to me ..
HeyGuys , i'mma back to post againn . Let's get started ! Today morning , sibei suay . Me & Wenli kena caught by MrsBeins fringe & was forcd to pin up -.- What the hell siol . Why she always target us one ? Damnn siol . I looks like nerdd (: HAHA ! Then after PE , me & wenli kena caught our fingernails by MrDerek ! Arghh , then was forced to cut . I was laughing like mad when cutting . Lying on the floor xD Jessie they all keep saying me siao , i admit i am onee . :D
HeyHey ! I'm backk againn . Toldchaa , i'll be posting really really often . So , stay tuned at my blogblog for more post ? Hahah . Alright , let's start with my day :D Today morning , never saw him at the old place he use to wait around the boys' toilet . First thought was : I guess , he dosen't want to see me anymoree . Then felt emotional , but still keeping a fake smile on my face . Dont wanna express my feelings out . After reaching hall , i tried to peep at his class . But , i never see clearly cause i never wear my specs . So just went to my class & settle downn .
